Yesterday...

...I cheated death. Basically, I was at Stanmore and it was a rainy day and of course you look both ways before crossing. So I first looked right - it was clear and then I looked left and there were cars, but they were stopping because of the pedestrian traffic light so I started crossing the road. Just as I peeked to the right, I saw a fast car approaching and I was literally centimetres away from it and I quickly leapt, which I did and the car didn't even slow down..it just went on as usual. Any later then I might have been hit. Now I don't want to sound OTT here, but what if it happened? I can't say how severe it might have been.

So after that, all I could think about was that moment and you know those quick flashbacks, yeah, them too! I mean most people would probably say big deal, but for me it was scary shit. My mum's constant reminder of "looking left and right before crossing the road" is probably paying off, but that's what I did. Anyways, i'm moving on. A blend of maths and chemistry (oh crap, the presentation for chem!), finishing late at 5pm and watching Never Mind The Buzzcocks tonight will do for me today.

Isn't it just awkward

...when you've cut out someone who you're no longer friends with and you have done so for the past 5 months, but since they know your friends they will talk to them too? And isn't it awkward when you're in the same room as them. I have been cutting this one person out since we had a major fallout that made our friendship useless in the end (Many issues involving thinking that this person was my close friend when it turned out that I was just a friend and the fact that they hid the fact that I was annoying them, but decided not to speak up and let it get worse).

Now, I don't think about this person but when I see or hear them, you re-live the moment where they lashed out at you or visually recall the emails saying that they "couldn't deal with me" or threatened me that "if I turned my friends against me, believe me, you'll regret it", which I wasn't going to do, after all, a private issue is private and nothing more. It hurts thinking about these horrible things but then again it teaches me not to make the same mistakes. I've moved on and so has this person. Why should I care?

This was one of the problems I had with people last year and this year, i'm making sure that this never happens...The people I hang around with in this college are the greatest, without trying to sound melodramatic. I've never been happier and if a repeat of that incident happens, then i'm at a low point. No joke! I feel so emo.

On a plus note, i'm getting the new Kaiser Chiefs album today. I've heard average reviews today. Oh dear :(

It always has to do with money!

I guess people are really strapped for cash these days or have problems involving cash. On my way home this afternoon, it took longer than normal because of "2 events". The first one being in the bus where a group of people had the wrong ticket and interestingly enough there was a bus inspector who told them that they had the wrong ticket and this resulted in the bus driver turning the bus off. So the argument goes on and everyone on the bus stopped listening to their music (me included) and were listening to this argument. Eventually after the police arrived, we went on the next bus and it was interesting to see these people get escorted to the police van...before they came, they thought it was all a joke! Well haha, the jokes on you now. Pay for your ticket next time. On a small note...ahhh, i'm not gonna share it with you. It's a best friend thing!

Secondly, I was in HMV buying an album and the queue to the tills was longer than usual. There were two guys who apparently were using a credit card that wasn't under their name and when one of them started shouting, the powerful moment of everyone in the store stopping what they were doing and staring at the guys arguing occured. Great, isn't it? The guy randomly cut in to us saying "Sorry you have to hear this guys"..well shock horror! Some civilisation at last. I was expecting a "What are you looking at?" thing. Had wait a little longer before I was served and the lady at the till said "Sorry for the long wait"..why apologise, we got our entertainment!

Damn and speaking of cash, I had some spare money to buy my Airliner World magazine. What a nerd I am, or am I not? Nah, I love my planes. The spare money will probably go to buying krispy kremes for me..failing that, krispy kremes for KT and happy tree if I feel bad about buying donuts...yeah..erm...that rarely happens!

Demon Days

Today has been a strange day, seeing as today is, IMO, the most overhyped day of the year (and my depressing one) and where I am at the moment (in college), it's quiet. It almost seems like V Day has been wiped out in this college...thank goodness! At the moment, it's me, Happy Tree and Dalek Dave using computers next to each other. It's all we do when we're bored...go on computers.

College is so boring and to be honest, I can't be asked anymore. A2 is a bummer, really it is...it's like one of those "yeah i understood that...few months later" and then "argh there's more!" Just now in Maths, all we did was our homework and our teacher kept dipping in and dipping out of the classroom. It's just really wasting our time and all we do when he walks out is just talk to each other about random things as we just find the work difficult, lol.

Now I have Chemistry next and that's getting boring. Apparently theres more to alcohol than we thought. Snore snore. We spent like a lesson about neutralising Vinegar with Sodium Hydroxide. And everyone is just not bothering to turn up to lessons, which seems to be the trend recently at college.

Enough about the ranting, I have good things to praise. First is that i'm starting to catch up with Skins (still about 2 weeks behind) and i'm apparently underaged to watch it, as I mentioned yesterday, but I can watch it, i'm gonna be 18 next month. I want to know Sid's story and Maxxie's too oh and Anwar's (I heard the actor playing him is from Harrow, ooh). I'm still not adjusted to the idea that the guy who plays Tony used to be that chubby guy who sang that rap in About a Boy.

Also, i've been listening to the Klaxons new album, Myths of the near future when I figured out that they were New Rave, I was thinking "what's that?". How ignorant of me! Don't get me wrong, I knew who they were, I mean Golden Skans is what made me get the album. Despite my ignorance, I have to admit that it's a good album (EDIT: Vinit seems to disagree, but that's one against two, so screw you! Haha) and there might be some weird songs in there, as well as the last track which is 19 minutes long. Yep, that long. For the first 3 minutes, theres music then the next 10-12 minutes there's absolute silence and then in the last few minutes, some more music cuts straight in. Next up: Yours Truly, Angry Mob by the Kaiser Chiefs!

Tuesday

Normally Tuesdays in college are crap but today has been hell of a good one. Dalek Dave (who apparently claims that she rules the world), Eylan and Joanna are here today, as well as Bibki...hooray. Well I had the unfortunate chance to experience the headache that KT had (by pushing my fingers into my temples!!!) and boy was it painful and as well as that, I had a free lesson...well things happen and not by me…seeing a photoshopped image of Johnny depp hump a deer, well, let’s not go there, but it had been done and so has some other pics of that guy who plays Norman bates in weird positions and also a photoshopped pic of some girl attached to a girls face hugging Daniel Radcliffe (whos half naked)…Remind me not to sit next to these people! Lol

So here I am now, during my lunch break, using computers next to Dalek Dave and some people in my class and i'm watching previews of Skins...heard it's good and it was, but apparently i'm under age to watch it. I'm also watching clips of Hollyoaks and its not normally a show I watch with a passion, but there, but who cares's this storyline with John Paul and Craig - i'm finding it interesting and I don't know why. I really want to see how it works out.

Right i'm off to Physics in 15 minutes and tomorrow is my demon day!!! Arghhhh

Snow (Hey Oh)

Look what a snow storm can do. I thought college was going to be shut for today..well it turns out, after looking at the website that it is also going to be shut tomorrow...wooo hooo - long holiday!

I made a small snowman on top of our family car..only for it to slowly melt throughout the day! Grrrrrr! Our conservatory feels like an igloo with the snow layer on top, although it is now starting to melt and some of the water (having previously been snow) is seeping into the conservatory! I miss the old days when we would let the rabbits out of their hutch to see if they would actually get out and guess what, they did! However, 5 minutes later, they went back to their hutch...it was funny!

What else happened today..Nothing much really. Just listened to the radio. Funnily enough, whilst listening to Richard Bacon, he read a blog off someone who was doing work experience with the radio station and the blogger slagged them off. The people who the blogger slagged off hit back and it was hilarious!

Snow!!

Snow returns after 2 weeks of its absence and its more heavier than the last one. My opinion: About f*cking time...again! lol It owes us about 3 years worth of snow when we needed it during the winter.

Anyways I don't know if my college is open or not! And I live further than my other friends, so i'm just gonna stay at home. It looks nice out there but I think i'd get pissed off because its bad on the roads (and dangerous too!)...well the local ones anyway. Well at least I have an excuse for not going in college. And even if college was open, I couldn't get there anyway because I only have one lesson and what's the point if I arrive there when my only lesson finishes? If it was open that would be unfair as my best friend (whose on her final year in high school) got the day off!

Bored (part II) and personal rant

So once again, i'm using a computer in college next to Vikki and I think everyone is pulling a sicky just because today is national sicky day. What else needs to be a national day? How about "National turn up to work day" and erm, national "make up random national days" day...what have we come to? And i'm sure Vikki agrees too!

OK now for my rant. Basically, college was supposed to be a good thing but recently, everything's got boring lately. In our college, there's nothing to do and nobody really socialises and it just gets very boring and i'll be honest, the AS lot this year aren't really ones I can get along with (I only really speak to 2 people off AS). And when I enrolled for A2, I found that I had difficulty finding people to hang around with. Last year, I was part of many groups and just went to them and spoke to them. This year, since half of our year left or got kicked out, I find it hard to find people who I can hang round with and it was hard in September when I wasn't getting on with a few people. Now i'm more happier because I know where i'm aiming for. My real friends in this college are at the Vikki and KT (EDIT: and Joanna, who got offended when she didn't see her name. Yes Joanna, you really are my real friend!) end, and some guys from my Physics, Chemistry and/or Maths class(es) (3 people really) and I figured that out in December.

I was getting miserable (and depressed too) because I was trying too hard and was going for everyone, and to most of them, they really wanted me to get lost. Now that my exams are over, I know who exactly my real friends are and now I can forget about the rest. If they (the others) can't tolerate me, then to hell with them. In all honesty, college is basically high school all over again. Same problems, same issues, but in disguised in the form of A levels. I can't wait till I get out of Uni, that is if my mum and sister will let me move out!

Rant over. God I feel so emo!

Bored...

I'm at college at the moment and well, everyone seems to have disappeared and it's very lonely. Nevertheless, i'm using the computer right next to Vikki and we're both bored. I have key skills now and it's just soooo boring. We have a good teacher, but for most of the lesson, he just goes to one person or a group of people and speaks to them about random crap for the rest of the lesson! And I just had Physics and my teacher wasn't in, so the technician took over the lesson. He just kept butting in with stuff that wasn't relevant and was basically waffling on and on.

Oh it's just got to me why half of the people aren't in today. Today is National sicky day, where today is the day where everyone phones in sick! Aren't people smart? Now why didn't I do that. Why did I get my lazy ass out of bed and left home to go on a 90 minute journey to college when I could have just called in sick!

Back to work!